Sunday, 1 June 2008

An Emotional Wreck

Hey everyone :o)

Good lord what a week.............Where do I begin this entry?  Well Tuesday was fairly uneventful which was nice and it all started on Wednesday.

Got home from work as usual, well a little bit later actually coz I was trying to build up some flex :)  and I rung mum to see if she was free at the weekend, she was so that was good.

Later in the evening I got a text from my brother to ask if I wanted to go out for this meal ~ i thought yeah cool.........and rung him back during a break in Britain's Got Talent.  He asked if I minded Dad coming along.............(regular readers will remember I don't get on with my father and there is really no love lost there ;)  Annoyed that I was being stitched up like this by my own brother I agreed that he could tag along.  Apparently he wanted to know why I wasn't contacting him and why I didn't like him. 

So I spent the rest of Wednesday night in tears thinking how awful this meal was going to be, but at least it might give me the opportunity to set the record straight after all these years.  The more I would think about it the more I would cry :(  I didn't want to loose my brother over this coz I'm sure he doesn't understand how I feel.  Anyway Thursday I spent at work panicing :(

Because of the way I was feeling I agreed with P that we needed chocolate and coz I needed money for the meal I went down to the kitchen to get it :o)

5 o'clock came and I had to leave to make sure I was there by half 5 to meet them.  I didn't really care whether I got there on time or not............tried to put it off for as long as possible.  Whilst i was walking there it was raining so I had to spend the rest of the evening with damp feet :(  Not the best thing in the world to have lol

Met Greg and we went in for a drink, apparently Dad wouldn't be there till 6pm.  I tried to look as nonchalant as possible, like I didn't care but goodness knows whether I pulled it off.  Greg and I chatted until he turned up.  As soon as he came in, I could feel the dread in my stomach :(  He got a drink and sat down on the poof thingy and he seemed to be sitting with his back to me as he talked all kinds of technical crap with Greg.  This was not starting off well (he had said hello to me, just in case you were wondering lol).

So after a while we went to get a table for dinner.............they were busy and told us we would have to wait 30 minutes.  It wasn't 30 minutes later when they called us so that was good :)  I had scampi for the first time ever, which was quite nice.  The conversations over dinner was mostly stuff that I had heard about before but I was told that he had sent me xmas presents for the last two years but knew I wasn't getting them as I hadn't cashed the cheques.  He seemed to be under the impression this was what had angered me.............oh, how little he knows me......................

Anyway to cut a long story short ;)  I have agreed that he can get my number and stuff from Greg and contact me.  Well if he makes the first move I can't argue with that for a change can I?  We shall see anyway...............

The whole time we had been in the pub it had been raining and when we left it was absolutely pouring down!!!!!  I was lucky coz Greg offered me a lift :o)  So I got home, put the TV on and unpacked my work bag...............Hang on a minute where is my wallet??????????

Freaked out I turned my work bag inside out and even checked my coat pockets twice...............This turned me to blind panic and made me tearful once again :(  I had just taken out £10 to pay for my meal but Dad had paid so I didn't need to look for my wallet at the pub!!  I couldn't believe it, I was broke anyway but to loose £13 was a nightmare................................Usually my wallet has nothing in it........................

Then if that wasn't bad enough...........coz it was raining so hard out there the plumbing started acting up :(  So I couldn't use the toilet and I always get freaked out when I can't use the loo coz that will be the one time that I want too...................More tears............

I went to work Friday with my heart in my mouth hoping beyond all hope that my wallet was still in my drawer..........it was *phew*

But just when I thought I was coping..............the office move happened to incorporate the section with the girl that I didn't like much (I don't mind her as much now ;) Well they are sitting behind us.  Well five minutes of them being there they had the window open and the fans blowing.............I could feel my back starting to play up.  It doesn't like a chill..............So I couldn't cope anymore...twice i went to the loo's :(  P has gone back to her moody ways with the world.............which is not good.  I know I work with her but I don't want to be part of any annoyance anymore.

So I went to see Mum yesterday and hoping for a good day I left earlier than usual and had to wait at mum's door for her to come home from shopping lol.............

Meggy's got Mario Kart for the DS so I was playing that pretty much the majority of the time :o)  I want a DS for that game alone lol

We went into town and I brought essentials but nothing spectacular.

I came home and walked back from the train station..........about 1 minute away from my front door and it hammered down with rain.  See pictures 7,8 and 9 for the devastation of the heavy rain.  I couldn't believe it when I saw the car park flooded..........of course it made me panic about the plumbing again........then there was more rain forecast for today :( 

Luckily it hasn't rained since and that water disappeared as quick as it appeared...........pray that we don't have anymore.  It's started me thinking perhaps I should pack an emergency bag in case I have to leave for flooding :(  Well it's just a thought.

Anyway lighter subjects..............Who watched Britain's Got Talent?  Yay George :o)  I'm so happy he won..........I was crying still when his name was announced but it was happy tears this time lol.................

Well I hope you all have a better week than I have x  I'm behind in alerts which won't help tomorrow coz I'm going to start having Monday's as a no computer night...................Wish me luck ;)

Take care all xx

16 comments:

jjdolfin9 said...

OMG Jenny.  What a terrible time you have had.  It's a wonder you aren't a nervous wreck girlfriend.  It would be nice if you and you dad patched things up.  Whatever happens, it will be for the best I'm sure.  Hang in there Jen.
Hugs, Joyce

sugarsweet056 said...

Hoping this coming week is better for you. {{}}
Hugz,
Sugar

swmpgrly said...

well I am glad you had some tears of joy after all that.

louiseb411 said...

Sorry you had a  bad week. Things like that all add up dont they. Hope this week is better for you. Caught up with the apprentice on iplayer......go Lee!! louise   xx

specialadyfink said...

No computer Mondays-oooh I should think it would bug the heck out of me that I wasn't to touch it-and do it anyway to prove I could--but That's Me
Hugers
connie

pamal3 said...

Aw ((((( My Jenners)))) What a terrible time you have been having. I hope everything starts to turn around for you. You did well going for the meal, well done, that took loads of courage. Pretty awful you losing that cash, I know how tight things are with money. Aww my lambchop, I hope you are okay. If you need anything remember I am just an email away. Love Pam xx

jeadie05 said...

That certainly is mighty fine hair I love it you lovely girl ,so sorry your week has been a bit shitty ,can only get better ,did I tell you you are a pretty girl and really suit the hat ..love Jan xx

oddb0dkins said...

What a crabby week Jen. But the hair does look damn fine so it's not all bad.
I hope you have a better week this week.

B. x

stewielad1 said...

I don't get on with my Dad so I know where your coming from. I see him once or twice a year. He knows I wont forgive him for what he done.
Anyway, hope you well Jenny, not long until Queen!!

cayasm said...

Awww Jenny what a horrid week for you, nothing worse if you don't get along with someone even worse when it's a relative but I think you coped well, also glad you found your wallet. Hopefully this wek will be better for you.

Take care

Yasmin
xx

rachealcarol said...

Love the hat Jen :) and the dam fine hair, you've got a lovely healthly shine people pay pounds and pounds for.  Coooool bike! liking that a lot. Rache

funnyface0s0 said...

Hi Jen, how was your first non computer night ?  Hope this week got off to a better start..... oh, c'mon here........((((( BIG HUG FOR MY JEN ))))))))   all those tears upsetting you, i won't have it :o)
Luv Jaynee XX

rdautumnsage said...

First of all, I like your damn fine hair (hugs) It's like mine since I started growing it back out. Sounds like we both had similar weeks with different dilemmas. I hope this week finds things more upbeat and happy for you hon. (Hugs) Indigo

jaymact1 said...

Hi Jen, what a week you have had so sorry to hear about it hopefully this week will be better.     Love Joan.

mortonlake said...

poor you              what  an awful meal   my stomach  would have  been so knotted up.  was  rather deceitful of your brother    but maybe he was trying to  get  you  n your  dad  to talk       shame  that  lol    thank  goodness you found  wallet hun            no fun losin  money.   take care  love  mort  xxxxx

luvrte66 said...

I'm sorry to hear it was such a rough week for you. I think you were very courageous to meet with your father, and if he initiates further contact with you, I think you'll handle it well. Maybe getting that meeting out of the way (sounds like it had been a while) helped, and you won't feel so worried next time. Good luck!

Beth