Tuesday 9 January 2007

Crazy Enough

 It has to be just that time of month again (no, not PMS!!) but I'm feeling down and miserable.

It's not the job ~ although when it comes down to it I'm not very good at it and they would probably be better off without me.  It's the people I work with!!  I'm sick to death of being nice to them and gettin' crap all in return.  I mean why do I bother??  Monday I go in, not in the greatest of moods but seeing how the land lied and I don't even get a good morning.  Same thing happend today ~ I had to say it before I got a response.  For the past two days I may as well have not been there for all the conversation that has come my way :(

Yesterday I was so fed up I started slamming things about like my calculator etc.  It made me feel slightly better.  Today it proved I wasn't part of the 'in crowd' coz I didn't get an invitation to lunch.  Last time K was due in I got one, I couldn't go coz I couldn't afford it but at least I was asked.

It all boils down to me I know that!!  I shouldn't spend so much time listening to those voices in my head telling me how crap everything is!!  I have been to this situation before and come out smiling on the other side, so why do I feel this time is going to be any different?

I'm sorry I know I'm ranting, but if I don't rant then it will stay boiled up inside my head and I'll just take my anger out on something else!!  Trina's been having to listen to my rants for the past couple of days ~ poor thing!!  And with hangovers too, I don't know how she does it ;-)  (Please note the sarcasm!!)

At home I am a little bit happier!!  Yesterday you guys would've been proud of me.  I got home, hoovered (very quickly), sewed a few things and hand washed the clothes that were in the laundry basket!!

At least I have my Guitar Hero game to cheer me up :-)  and my computer of course *gives computer a little hug*LOL

Tomorrow Trina and Wayne are coming round ~ I'm being used.  She wants to check if her new snazzy MP3 player will work on my computer coz it doesn't on theirs.  If it does guess where she's getting the music from??  Yep muggins here!!  I feel I am going to have start charging for these priviliges lol ;-)

Oh, and guess what??  South West Water have given me a final demand YET AGAIN!!  I have paid it ~ found the bill where I write on them that I've paid it and checked my bank statement online.  So this means a phone call to sort this out AGAIN!!  I tell ya it's the last time I pay online for my water if this is gonna keep happening.

Why is nothing ever simple??!!

Anyway the long and short of it is that I have to find a new job.  Mind you I was thinking about that earlier.  The pro's for this place definitely outweigh the cons.  I just need to get some perspective on life ~ if that's what I mean!!  Ugh...................I'm sorry if this entry makes no sense.  I'm really writing it for myself in a way to moan out loud ~ well moan by typing anyway LOL

Well I think I shall leave it here and go and do something that will cheer me up :-)

Later dudes and dudettes

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dear Jen ,if thats the way they treat you they dont deserve you ,start looking around for something new ,if thats how you feel ,you can be in a job too long sometimes ..we love you ..Jan xx

Anonymous said...

Hello Jen - get the local paper and start job hunting, don't put up with all their c**p your better than that.   Big Hugs,
Luv Jaynee x
http://journals.aol.co.uk/funnyface0s0/SingleGirl/

Anonymous said...

Hi dudette, he he :o)
Big ((((( )))))'s for you, you know we all think you're great, stuff the people at your work.  The 'in crowd' smells anyway, your Queenie crowd sounds much more fun ;o)  Find another job if that's what you feel you need to do, and in the meantime, don't let 'em get you down hon.
Sara   xxx

Anonymous said...

Jen I agree with everyone else ~ if you can find another job those colleagues of yours sound horrible ~ Ally x

Anonymous said...

My dad always told me that if the job's getting you down don't just walk out on it. Go sick for a couple of weeks, maybe it'll pass. If it does you've still got your job, if not, well then you can still leave. Just a thought.
Hope you're feeling better soon Jen. B. x

Anonymous said...

Aww, (((((big hugs))))) to cheer you up a wee bit.  
We all need a moan now and again, so just let it all out if it makes you feel better.  You know I'm here if you need to chat.
Keep your chin up.
A xxx

Anonymous said...

Just keep saying good morning to them Jen.  You're a friendly girl don't let them bring you down to the arrogant level.  If you're going to be searching for a new job then best of luck, I know you'll find one, cos you are good, you do throw yourself into learning stuff.  Rache

Anonymous said...

Oh dear Jenny you did have a bad couple of days. I think you will feel better if you start the search for another job maybe things will get better meantime I certainly hope so. Love Joan.

Anonymous said...

Chin up Jennie, I know how you feel about being miserable, Im like it too. Dust yourself off and look for a new exciting job. New year new hope and all that.
I was playing Guitar Hero with my nephew on christmas day. I was showing off though because I was playing Shout At The Devil on a real guitar while he was playing the game..lol

Anonymous said...

The job is certainly not right for you so start looking for a new one but do not quit until you have found an alternative. keep smiling at everyone... they may get the message! Love conniexx

Anonymous said...

Why would you want to be part of the in-crowd.
Im an outsider at work and happier for it.
They are all arseholes.
Im the boss anyway so cant be seen socialising with oiks!!

hehe

Anonymous said...

Hi, my nam is Lisa, I'm new to your journal! :o) I love it! I'll be back alright! :o) Have a good one! Hugs to you! :o)
Lisa